So much drama, like I don't really give a damn anymore, especially after the eventful, fucked up weeks I have had.
Mate moves, failing uni, job has been intense, people... being people, distance, relationships, everything under the sun. I am however, saving up for my new car, to move to Melbourne. I recently bought a laptop and a TV, and am the proud owner of a PS3, which I stole off my little brother. PSN is down, so he really couldn't give a damn about it either.
My room is an absolute pigsty and I don't care, if it bothers people, then get out. Duh.
So many people owe me money that it is ridiculous, it is ALOT if you add up all the numbers, but no, they don't care. They won't pay me back. Probably never, which is the sad part, also that you trust someone enough for them to screw you around.
Now, I smoke, maybe I should quit, maybe I shouldn't, I don't want anyone telling me what to do, or how to live my life. I'm me, get over it. I do what I want!!! (South Park)
What else has happened while I am on here. Oh right, Justin Bieber landed, whoopty friggin doo!!! The girls at the airports screams could be heard from a mile away, I hope he got egged again, because that was god damn funny. I put the YouTube clip on repeat.
University is so average at the moment, only few people are keeping me going, lovely Andy what would I do without you???? The there aremy two best mates in my course, C and M. They're the only people keeping me going, I have already given up, and first semester isn't even over. I am also doing my Prac for my course, and that is another thing keeping me going, my client, she is absolutely wonderful and I would not want to ruin that. For her sake, and for mine.
Work, work is work. What can I say, has it's good days, and has it's bad, I can't bag it because it's giving me a living. If I didn't have this job then I wouldn't have a TV or a laptop or soon to have, a car. I am so glad I'm working hard for what I want, and it is not being given to me by parents or anything. If that happened, I'd just turn into a spoilt slut, who doesn't give a damn about family, friends or relationships. Yes, I'm being bias, so what. I am entitled to my own opinion.
Another thing about University is that it has opened up my eyes to the world and what is around us, I never used to see people with disabilities for who they really were as much, until now. I still hardly saw them very different, but it has opened my eyes to the politics and the media around the area, and how it is influencing the general publics opinion on the area, and of people in the category.
Mental illness, people with intellectual disabilities isn't very known or recognised, as they have "normal" features to them, from the plain eye. Everyone has something wrong with them. There is no such thing as a normal person. Alot of people have mental health issues, you just can't see it, and then there are psychologists who think they know everything, when they don't. They really don't. They can twist anyones words to make people think what they want to think about someone, or even themselves.
Man I have written a shit load, but I can go on, and I probably will. I am on my little rant now.
What else, oh yes. The Prime Minister of Australia, want's to cut Welfare checks to teenagers with children unless they get an education or try and get a job, (something along those lones) and I agree with it. Work for your money, the Welfare system in Australia is totally corrupt, there are so many people who get around it, who make more money sitting on there arses doing nothing and making more than people who went to uni and worked their bloody guts off to be where they are now. It makes no sense, not one bit. If you want money, prove that you need it, work for it. Don't sit on your arse day in, day out. It's actually bad for you health aswell, and you'll probably get fat, if not, unhealthy.
Everything needs changing, everything could be so much better now, but in reality, change never happens. People don't change, so instead they grow apart, choose people and friends suited to you. I've been going on a friend detox since year 9, winning and losing some constantly, at the end of this detox, I'll know who is true. I don't hate anyone, but I can't be friends with people who don't like me, as me, or don't suit me. It's so hard to explain, but in the end, you want to be around people most compatible, similar interests, etc. etc.
I'm going to leave it at that. I most likely won't write anything for a while, but it's not like anyone actually reads this, so meh. Have a good life.
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